Well, of course he is (really lovely and special for sure), but MAN can he give me a run for my money.Who knew? Well, apparently lots of people but no one told me until recently...
Of course, it has been seven months of 6 hours of interrupted sleep each night and days filled with wanting to make EVERYONE happy so I am a bit snarky and over emotional. But I have never seen such a fit from a child as I did today - all because Momma put him in the jumper to clean up the kitchen after lunch. He was hopping mad (literally!). It was comical and frightening all in one. I have long been aware that if he is hungry, constipated, if you pull away a toy too soon, put a shirt over his head or any other everyday routine changes he screams bloody murder. I am always shocked by it, whoa, am I hurting him, what is WRONG baby? Wow, is it really just that? It kind of blows my mind how angry such a little guy can be and makes me wonder how much baby temperament becomes lifelong temperament.
And then I talk to others who previously told me boys were so easy or that they should have had the second one first blah blah blah. Who are these people? Are they the same people that say they can't remember life before having kids? I never understood that phrase. I definitely can't imagine life WITHOUT my kids, but I do remember life before kids. Our fantastic little apartment on Water Street where we would lay on the living room floor for hours after a big meal listening to music and talking about life. Now after dinner is a race to bedtime without doing dishes and lots of hushed conversations. Anyways, the point is these people are crazy. And they don't seem to remember telling me boys were easy, actually they say boys are hard, fussy and demanding (hm... sounds a lot like men, just kidding Soren!). I guess I am just wondering when it will be more seamless, when it will all click and fall into place. When little Kap will let us all have a little space to be ourselves and grow. 4 months and on has been a challenge but I am really learning to love those giggles and smiles and absorb them when I can. Bless you all for having children and know that parenting is the hardest job around (in my eyes!). Some people make it look easy but it is not so don't get down for what you see in others - focus on you and what you can do best. Each day is a unique challenge and each night I lay my head on my pillow and fret all the things I did wrong that day. God bless us all for giving it a go and being willing to enjoy the ride. My new commitment is to relax more, let go and see what happens. I'm hoping for a miracle right now!
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Jenn, there must be something in the air these days. I am feeling what you are saying...and so is my sister (www.wifeofthechef.blogspot.com). You should check out what she wrote just so you can see how others feel lots of the same things. I know I do. And I think boys are harder when they are young, but easier when they are like 13. Girls with all that emotion at that age. But it will get better as time goes on, he will start to sleep longer etc. I was up at 11:30, 2:30, and then 5 am for GOOD this morning. Ugh. It makes you kind of crazy.... :) But just remember you are a great mom! And I am constantly being inspired by you. We miss you guys so much!
Hey Sweets!
You were a handful until about 4 months and then you discovered your sister and how entertaining she could be! That made my life a lot easier. ;->
love you all and can't wait to see you soon.
love,
Mom
well I obviously don't have any little ones (yet) so I have no advice but I do know that you are a fantastic mom! I just received the most awesome handmade thank you card in the mail...you are amazing!
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